Great!

Focused on Him

"Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors."
- James 1:2-3

This verse has been my net this week. I know that you have to be attacked for God to step in and save you but somehow I am still blown away by how desperate I can get for his rescue. Never does it cease to amaze me how I can feel so down and then be lifted up so high by his amazing grace. I found this verse in James last week when I was basically as low as I have felt in three years. I was just begging God to save me and help me through all of the struggles and pain. He led me to that verse in James and for the first time I took the challenges as a blessing.

It is true that under pressure I am forced to turn towards God and keep no secrets from him. When I am forced into telling him the truth and completely open up my heart to him. I love that I am forced to do that. I wish I could do it without opposition. I pray that one day I will be strong enough to be able to be completely open with God all the time. That truly is my hearts desire. I know that he will answer the desires of my heart when I truly honor him and all that he asks of me.

One day he will send me the person who will complete me. The person who will be so in love with God that his love spills over to me. That is what I truly want. Until God sends me that man though, I will focus on him. I will let myself become so in love with God so that one day my love can spill out to the Godly man he sends me.

Until that day Gods love is enough.

Living the Dream

I would like to say my life is amazing but I am pretty sure it is just average.

Though I might not be doing extraordinary things I feel like all the little things that occur everyday are extraordinary. I just got back from our youth camping trip and I feel so blessed. Kyle lead the best devotions. I had no idea he was so well informed on the bible. Listening to how he talked about God gave me the desire to search more for God in my own life. I want to be able to quote scripture when asked a question. I want to be lead a devotion without feeling nervous. I want to walk a closer walk with God. The weekend was not only fulfilling but challenging.

My life is getting more and more difficult every day but I know God is taking care of me. Especially when he sends people into my life for a season.

Thank you God for an amazing weekend with amazing Christians.

Changes

I am growing up.

I am becoming a new person through Christ.

I am going through so many changes in my life right now. I am really not sure how I feel about it. I don't have much of a say though, because I am just keeping my mouth shut and listening to God. I have no idea why he is sending me through this fire, but I am walking through it with faith. I am about to leave everyone and everything that I love for a foreign country with foreign people and foreign experiences. It is all new to me. I fell like I am walking blindly to my death. I know that for whatever purpose I am going through this though, God will use it to glorify him. I pray that through all my pain he will use me and turn the hurt into joy. All I want out of this experience is the opportunity to show him to others everyday. I want to live my life's purpose and share him with others, no matter what the circumstance.

God give me the strength to do your will and be who you want me to be.

Satan is a Liar

Satan is a liar.

That is all there is to it. I know I have amazing things coming my way. Satan is putting everything he can in my path to steer me in the wrong direction.

I will not be swayed.

I know who I am and what God has for me. Pray for me. Satan is a powerful enemy and I am ready for battle.

Never More Tried, Never More True

I have found that as time goes on so do I.

I am constantly changing, and I welcome that change. There was once a time that I feared the change, but now it seems to be a part of my everyday search. I am about to enter a new chapter in my life, and as I look upon the unknown I am not afraid, but excited. Excited not only for the possibilities, but for the plans that God has already ordained for me. I know that whatever my near future holds, it will be good. Good and only good.

And I need that.

So let the goodness commence. I am ready and willing. Though my life will change it's purpose never will.